Sometimes a change in season invites us to reconsider more than our daily habits.
I took a vacation just as September came to a close and October began. Because the trip involved caring for a family member, it wasn't entirely a break from responsibility. Still, it was a welcome opportunity to step away from my usual routine, disconnect, and enjoy some time without the demands of my everyday schedule.
Then I came home. And... I got sick.
Not sick in the sense that I'd caught something, but physically and emotionally exhausted. Overwhelmed.
Migraines, which were once a regular part of my life, are now rare. But when I push myself too hard and don't honor my needs, they occasionally return. This was one of those times.
I'd gone straight from vacation into a busy, high-stress schedule when what I really needed was a slower pace and some breathing room to transition back into work and home life. I recognized what was happening, but I couldn't seem to slow down. My thoughts were racing, my inner dialogue wasn't particularly helpful, and I was struggling to find my footing.
What made it especially frustrating was that I knew better. I knew what my body needed. I had the tools to support myself, yet accessing them felt harder than usual.
Sometimes returning from a vacation brings the contrast between our everyday responsibilities and our deeper desires into sharper focus. Stepping outside our familiar environment can give us enough perspective to recognize what we've been tolerating, putting off, or simply accepting as normal.
Coming home, I felt that contrast.
My calendar was full, my responsibilities were waiting, and the seasons were changing. The days were growing shorter, the temperatures were shifting, and I found myself longing for something I couldn't quite put my finger on.
More rest? More freedom? More time to play?
Maybe all of those things.
What surprised me was the intensity of my desire to step away from everything. Not just take another vacation, but reconsider how I was living.
I started questioning everything. My clothes, my books, the things I've accumulated, how I spend my time, the balance between work and play (I definitely need more play!), and even where and how I want to live.
Some of these questions have been quietly developing for a while. Others seem to have arrived with the changing leaves.
And while part of me would love to pack a bag and run away from it all, another part recognizes something familiar.
I'm growing, and my life is asking me to grow with it.
When the Seasons Change, So Do Our Needs
We often think of seasonal transitions in terms of changing our wardrobes, adjusting our schedules, or preparing our homes for colder weather.
But seasonal changes can also influence our energy, mood, sleep, and desire for activity.
As daylight hours decrease, the timing of our exposure to natural light changes. This can affect our circadian rhythms, which help regulate sleep, alertness, and many other physiological processes.
Our routines may also change. We spend less time outdoors, social opportunities shift, and the demands of work and family continue, even as our bodies may be asking for something different.
Yet we often expect ourselves to maintain the same pace, productivity, and energy throughout the year.
Nature doesn't operate that way.
Trees don't continue producing new leaves through the winter. Many animals change their activity patterns, and the natural world moves through cycles of growth, release, restoration, and renewal.
Perhaps we can learn something from that.
When Familiar Routines No Longer Feel Supportive
In recent posts, I've talked about adaptability, the importance of recovery, and the role our nervous system plays in helping us respond to life's demands.
I've also shared some of my own experiences with unexpected changes, fatigue, grief, and the need for more quiet.
What I've been noticing lately feels like a continuation of that process.
Sometimes the routines we've carefully created begin to feel restrictive rather than supportive. We may still value our work, our relationships, and our commitments, yet recognize that the way we're managing them isn't quite right anymore.
That doesn't necessarily mean something is wrong.
It may mean our needs have changed.
When our demands consistently exceed the resources available to meet them, our nervous system and body may begin showing signs of strain. We might notice fatigue, irritability, difficulty concentrating, reduced motivation, or a strong desire to withdraw from responsibilities.
These signals deserve our attention, although they don't always tell us exactly what needs to change.
For me, the temptation is to start changing everything at once. But I've learned that feeling overwhelmed isn't necessarily the best time to make sweeping decisions.
Instead, I'm returning to the tools I've spent years cultivating and now share with others.
I'm giving myself permission to be curious rather than critical. I'm creating opportunities for quiet, regulating my nervous system, and allowing myself to explore what I want without demanding immediate answers.
I'm also remembering that growth can feel uncomfortable, even when it's leading us toward something wonderful.
Creating Routines That Support the Person You're Becoming
We often approach healthy routines as another list of things we should be doing.
Exercise more. Eat better. Go to bed earlier. Meditate every morning. Be productive. Stay organized.
All worthwhile intentions, but when our internal resources are already stretched, adding more expectations can become another source of pressure.
What if, instead of asking what else we should be doing, we started asking what would genuinely support us right now?
Here are a few practices I'm returning to during this transition.
1. Begin with regulation, not productivity.
Before planning the day, take a few moments to notice how you're feeling. Breathe slowly, feel your feet on the ground, look outside, or take a short walk.
These small moments can help create space between the demands of the day and your response to them.
2. Let your routines change with the season.
As the days grow shorter, consider adjusting your evening activities, sleep schedule, or time outdoors. Morning daylight exposure can help support your circadian rhythm, while a more consistent evening wind-down may make restorative sleep easier.
You don't have to maintain your summer schedule throughout the fall and winter.
3. Make recovery part of the routine.
Recovery isn't something we earn after completing everything on our to-do list.
It's an essential part of maintaining our capacity to adapt.
That may mean leaving some space between appointments, protecting an afternoon without commitments, or allowing yourself to enjoy an evening without accomplishing anything.
4. Create more room for enjoyment.
This is a big one for me right now.
It's easy to become so focused on responsibilities, service, and personal growth that we forget how important it is to simply enjoy being alive.
Play, laughter, creativity, connection, and time in nature aren't distractions from a meaningful life. They're part of one.
5. Allow yourself to question what no longer fits.
Sometimes growth involves letting go of familiar patterns, expectations, or commitments.
You don't need to have all the answers today.
Begin by noticing what feels nourishing and what feels draining. Pay attention to what brings a sense of possibility and what feels like an obligation you've outgrown.
Small changes can provide valuable information about the larger changes you may eventually want to make.
Trusting the Process of Change
One of the most valuable things I've learned through my own healing and personal growth is that I don't have to figure everything out at once.
I can feel uncertain and still trust myself.
I can recognize that something needs to change without immediately knowing what that change will look like.
I can honor the life I've created while remaining open to creating something different.
The tools I've developed through years of personal work, nervous system regulation, and intentional practice don't prevent me from experiencing uncomfortable emotions or periods of uncertainty.
They help me move through those experiences with greater awareness, confidence, and compassion.
I'm choosing to trust that I am supported, that I can navigate whatever changes emerge, and that the decisions I make can serve my well-being while respecting the people whose lives intersect with mine.
I don't have to force the outcome.
And neither do you.
A New Season, A New Rhythm
As we move further into autumn, perhaps the healthiest routine we can create is one that allows us to respond to our changing needs rather than holding tightly to old expectations.
We can begin with calm, build confidence in our ability to navigate change, and allow clarity to emerge through the process.
This is part of what I mean by building Internal Capacity: developing the ability to meet life's demands while maintaining enough reserve to recover, adapt, and stay well.
It's not about becoming so resilient that nothing affects us.
It's about learning to recognize what we need, responding with intention, and trusting ourselves as life evolves.
I'm still exploring what this next season will look like for me. There may be changes in how I work, how I play, and how I choose to spend my time. Perhaps there will be even bigger changes ahead.
For now, I'm listening, making space, and remembering that I am allowed to create a life that continues to fit the person I'm becoming.
A question to carry into this new season:
What in your life is asking for a new rhythm, and what is one small change you could make to support it?
You don't need to change everything.
Sometimes the first step toward a healthier life is simply giving yourself permission to do things differently.
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Thank you so much for sharing your experience. It seems universal. We leave our routine for a few days, and then come back with a sudden awareness of what is working and what isn't. Sometimes it seems like the whole thing needs to go! Often, we were already becoming aware of the need for change. Congratulations on taking the step to request a schedule that works better for you and your family. Even if it doesn't fall into place immediately, you have acted on what you need, and something new will come from it that is better than before. I also felt like I just wanted to step away completely for a day or two, then realized what I actually need is a better schedule with boundaries around it and more time doing what I love. For now, keep allowing the change of seasons guide you and notice what feels good, and what doesn't. Have a wonderful Fall season too!
I love this post because I can relate so well to it. Two weeks ago we returned from a one week vacation in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan. It was filled with exploration, beauty, peace and relaxation and celebration.
Upon returning home and having 3 days off before returning to work, I felt this overwhelming pressure that I have no spare time to enjoy my life, or spend with my family, or care for my home, or care for myself. I felt guilty as I felt I was trading an everything I love for a paycheck. I felt guilty for neglecting all the things in my life outside of work.
I kept feeling I should just quit my job. Obviously I should probably not do that, and I agree that obviously my emotions were encouraging me to make a rash decision, but with a rational intention: to give myself more time outside of work for other things I hold dear.
Last week I submitted a formal request to work 4 days a week instead of 5. Wish me luck!
Best wishes to you during this fall season,
Jacob